The bittersweet truth

He holds me while I’m sleeping, watching me breath and stroking my hair back. He whispers to me ‘I love you with all my heart’ And when I wake up, he gazes intently into my eyes and without having to say anything, I understand everything his heart holds. He protects me and cares for me. When he sees my lips pout, he knows instantly somethings wrong so he holds me in his chest, makes me feel secure and asks me what’s wrong. He chills with his boys but when the clock hits 7, he tells them “I gotta go” and picks me up just in time for our dinner plans. He always tells me I’m beautiful and that he’s the luckiest man on earth, making me feel that every effort I put into gettin ready is all worth it. Even when the prettiest girl walks by, his eyes stays on me and he tells me “you’re all that I ever want & need”. With that, I know that there will never be another cus I am the queen of his heart. He makes sure that I never wake up alone so he leaves me a note with a flower that says “Goodmorning beautiful, I can’t wait to see you later. I love you always.” Some nights that we argue, he wakes me up from the couch, carries me to the bed and tell me that he’ll take the couch tonight and gives me a goodnight kiss. I wake up with an apology letter, a fresh bouquet of flowers and my perfect man waiting for me in the kitchen with a smile on his face that erases all doubt in the world. In his busy work schedule he always finds time to call me at my work, tell me his misses me and he cant wait to see me tonight and I tell him I can’t wait to come home to you. When I’ve had a long hard day at work, he hands me a glass of wine, lights the candle, begins to massage my feet and asks me how’s work honey? He listens to me vent and I listen to him vent about his boring meetings and conference calls. I pause. A moment of silence. I look into his eyes and tell him that I’ve never felt so strongly about anyone before and that it’s too good to be real, like I don’t want to wake up from this beautiful dream. I tell him I don’t want to get my heart broken anymore. He lifts my chin up and then tells me “Sweetheart, I never want to see you cry because it will devastate me and break my heart to see the person I love the most hurt. You can trust me with your heart and trust me to take good care of it. Cus you’re the only one I need and the only one I want. Nothing more in this world can make me feel so complete and happy. Your smile lights up my day. Your laugh is the music to my soul. You are my present and my future and I will keep riding this rollercoaster with you until we get old and gray cus I love you with all my heart. Always have and always will.” With that said, I feel like the luckiest woman on Earth.

A relationship that starts at the peak with an all-consuming passion has a higher risk of burning out quickly. It is my belief that a relationship that starts on a strong foundation of moderate love, mutual respect, shared beliefs and tolerance has a greater potential of growing better each day… just like fine wine. As the saying goes… “I love you more today than I did yesterday, but not as much as tomorrow”.

You can play me but best believe I’m always gonna be one step ahead of you. We may live together, yea I pay bills too but just cause we live together don’t mean we share everything too. I got my own and you’re never gon’ know what I got in the bank. Cus I’m smarter than you think and always trying to stay one step ahead of you. You can play your games, spit your silly little games to these females. You can even hit on the ones that look like a man and has a kid but what do these females got on me? Nothin. And that’s how it’s always gonna be. Cus I stay one step ahead of you. You can apologize all you want, spit your bullshit excuses and lies but what you don’t know is I’m smarter than that and I’m not gon’ waste my time on lil boys like you that plays too many games. So you can play your games, spit your line and give me a dozen of excuses but by the end of the day, I’m already gone and you just lost yourself a down ass female. But for me, what did I lose? Just a bad relationship, time, money, and a cocky little boy who acts like my parole officer. So you know what I can do perfectly fine without you.